This post is inspired by Anne from ‘Anne Smiles’ and her post ‘My 9 Worst Sides’ where she listed the things she doesn’t always like about herself. After reading it I felt the urge to do the same to in my little black notebook I jotted down 7 things that I think leave plenty of room for improvement and personal growth. This is by no means a list of things I truly hate about myself but a list of things that in the process of writing them down made me realise where I could improve*.
- I talk to fill in the silence in one-on-one conversations. But then when I am in large social groups even when I know everyone I can be painfully shy.
- I waster far to much time worrying about small things.
- I struggle to talk about the way I feel. Which can mean for the people I am with and am close too a bad mood seems to come out of nowhere when really I’ve just bottled up a weeks worth of little grievances.
- I make too many comparisons. This is usually when I am experiencing something new I will compare it to experiences or things I already know instead of accepting it for what it is and taking in the moment.
- I put a lot of pressure on myself to be perfect. I think everyone is guilty of this a some point or other but it impacts how I view my achievements.
- I struggle to list things I like about myself. This is something Anne mentioned on her list as well, I find it hard to to view myself in a positive light and once I am in that mood I can’t seem to get out of it.
- I get stuck in my head to much. This could be in the form of only thinking about one topic until I do something about it, otherwise known as thought spirals which I naively didn’t realise affected other people. (Thank you to John Green for writing ‘Turtles all the way down’ and helping me realise this). I also get lost in fictional scenarios, or possible futures for myself instead of you know just living my damn life.
*please note the use of improve here because there is no way I could change all of these overnight. No one is perfect.